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Psalms 1:1
Blessed are those who do not walk in
step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the
company of mockers .
Dear energy
soul travelers of the cosmic universe!
Know that the Divine white light of love wants you to turn away from
those whom walk on the path with Uriel, the fourth arch angel of mankind….the
angel of darkness! Those individuals
whom try to stand in your way
to do good tidings for the Divine white light of love ?? Remain unscathed by their attempts to defeat
you!
Those whom
walk on the path of the light; whom are able to see in spirit that can’t be
seen by the flesh; whom have ears to hear in spirit which can’t be heard by the
flesh, are always protected from the ungodly
sinners whom hold the hands of Uriel and walk upon the path of darkness!
Psalms 139:1
For the director of music. Of David.
A psalm. You have searched me, LORD, and you know me.
When an
individual has built a trusting, loving, faithful relationship with someone
that they love with all earnest, they are not afraid to tell everyone about
that relationship. The same goes for the
relationship an individual has strongly built with the Divine white light of
love. The individual has love within
their heart, body, mind, spirit and soul because of the relationship they have
built with the Divine white light of love.
The simple man named Jesus Christ had the same relationship with God,
our father, in heaven (the spiritual
realm). He was not afraid to shout from his mouth his
strong convictions that God, our father, in heaven (the spiritual realm) is
real! His faith, trust and relationship
he had with God was so real in fact, he was willing to give up his life for
what he believed in. So many people in
the biblical days stated that “Jesus” was OUT OF HIS MIND! That the man was “beside “ himself! They called the man a liar! A con artist, if you will. A “false” prophet! But was he ?
Was the man a lunatic ? Was he
crazy or was he just a simple man whom believed very strongly in his faith
?
Why did the
man have to die for what he believed in ?
Why were so many people afraid of what “Jesus” believed in ? Those people were ignorant and not trusting. They did not have the eyes to see the
unseen. They did not have the ears to
hear the glory of the unheard words of the spiritual realm which is a reality
for all those whom believe and accept by faith and trust that it is the only
way into the light! Take delight in
knowing that all things are possible when you
believe and trust that all things are possible. If an individual walked around all day
complaining and stated to not only themselves but to others that they were a
miserable piece of crap whom could do nothing about their circumstances , what
do you suppose would happen? Not one
single thing! Those individuals expect
bad news! They believe that nothing good
will be obtained or gained! If an
individual speaks badly of themselves; look in the mirror and they believe what stares back in the mirror a bad person,
ugly person or shameful person ? Guess
what IS staring back at
themselves ? Exactly that! Those individuals reap what they sew!
The Divine
white light of love told me this a long time ago! I was called upon by the Divine white light
of love to always be where I always was, in life. Sure I stumbled…but I always picked myself up
and continued moving forward. So did the
simple man known as Jesus Christ. He
stumbled many, many times as he was
growing up and he did so until the day he was crucified.
The day the
man named Jesus Christ was crucified, he
was whipped until people could see him inside and out! The movies do not actually show what really
happened to that poor, poor man! The man’s
head was so badly beaten he was no longer recognizable! It was swollen multiple times over on the day
he was nailed to the cross! When we are
called upon to follow the Divine white light of love and we make that choice to
do so; we follow on the path of the
light, dear energy soul travelers of the cosmic universe. Our lives in the flesh is literally torn
inside and out! Our reality changes and
our eyes see what many can’t see because we are “born anew” just as the man
named Jesus Christ was resurrected and was renewed in spirit. He became a spiritual man and returned in
spirit. When we become ONE with the Divine, we are witness to the glory of the signs! We are a renewed individual in spirit.
Of course
the ungodly sinners, those whom do not believe will be critical of you! It was the same for Jesus Christ in the
biblical days. Have no fear and continue
to praise the Divine!
Psalms 112:4
Even in darkness light dawns for the
upright, for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.
Those whom
mock, curse or lie about followers of
the Divine and those whom steal from followers of the Divine should know that
it is promised all will be returned to the faithful what was stolen! It is promised by the Divine that the ground
shall quake at the bottoms of the ungodly sinners’ feet when all is said and
done! No hair shall be left untouched …strand
by strand…when a wrong has been committed and that ungodly sinner has failed to
confess their sin out of their mouth and failed to right a wrong committed
toward the righteous!
Good will come to those who are
generous and lend freely, who conduct their affairs with justice.
1 Corinthians 15:50
It is
promised by the Divine white light of love that no man, woman or child shall go
into the spiritual realm until they are “reborn” and that ALL whom are of the
flesh will perish as a sinner until they connect with the Divine and hear the
words of the Divine. There is no eternal, everlasting life in the
spiritual realm (in the Kingdom of glory) unless one is reborn and accepting of
the truth and the Divine is a fact! That the Divine exists! That the Divine is a reality!
The Divine
white light of love wants you to know that you must be obedient; trusting as
well as have an inner knowing always if you are to have everlasting, eternal
life in the spiritual realm after you leave your bodily flesh behind! You must be faithfully committed to walk on
the path of the light and never sway in the relationship with the Divine, just as you would not sway from your
relationship with your spouse if you were in the relationship with all earnest! If you
loved your spouse with all of your heart,
you would never want to cheat on your spouse! You would never sway from
the relationship. You would never want
to do anything to cause harm to your spouse.
If you were earnestly committed in the relationship with your partner
(your spouse), you would be faithful, loving, trusting and never do anything
with another person to harm your spouse!
The same is true being in a relationship with the Divine white light of
love. Jesus Christ had the same type of
relationship with God…his father in heaven (the spiritual realm).
1 Corinthians 9:17
Let me tell
you something! The Divine white light of
love does not owe the partially committed a single thing! To be partially committed is the same as
being NOT committed! If a spouse is
PARTIALLY committed…they may as well not be committed at all! There is NO commitment to the individual they
have married! If you have PARTIALLY
given a “gift” to someone, you have given NO gift at all!
The “amplified”
version of the verse states:
For if I do this work of my own free will, then I have
my pay (my reward); but if it is not of my own will, but is done reluctantly
and under compulsion, I am [still] entrusted with a [sacred]
trusteeship and commission. (AMP)
What the
Divine white light of love has shown me through visions and dreams, dear energy
soul travelers of the cosmic universe!
There is a flip side to the coin.
Where there is good , there is
evil! “FREE WILL” is NEVER free! YOU will
PAY and your “reward” will come back to you twenty times fold if you allow Uriel
(the fourth arch angel of mankind and the angel of darkness) to hold your hands
and sway you, blind you and cause you to obey his dirty commands! Uriel uses many devices to entice you to obey
his commands! There is someone whom
commits an act reluctantly at some point in time in their life, hopefully with regret that will teach them a
lesson so that they can turn their life around and learn from their experience.
1. Adultery
2. Lying
3. Stealing
4. Cheating others out of their
belongings, property or personal possessions.
5. Killing
6. Acting unkind, unsavory or vengeful
toward others
Even the “Lord”
commanded that those whom preach the gospel, should receive their living from
the gospel. However that didn’t mean
that they receive “riches” in money and
prosper in money. It meant that they
prosper in their words and by what they teach!
I have never been afraid to tell anyone whom asked, how information comes to me. If
information is to be made available to me,
it will come. I am able to see
what is unseen and hear what can’t be heard through my relationship with the
Divine. Those whom don’t believe can
remain non believers. It makes no
difference to me. Those whom believe
have received the messages that were meant for them when the message was given
to me and I shared it with them. I do
what is called upon me to do by the Divine white light of love.
What the
Divine white light of love says about non believers:
1 John 3:15
Anyone who hates a fellow believer is a murderer, and you know
that no murderers have eternal life in them.
This includes those whom detests or mocks a
fellow believer as well! The Divine
white light of love calls the unbelievers, the ungodly sinners a “destroyer”
! They are dead, dead, dead to the
spiritual realm when they go to take their last breath upon this planet called
earth! Whom shall be waiting for their
soul, but Uriel…the fourth arch angel of mankind…the angel of darkness!
2 Thessalonians 3:6 states that every brethren stay away from those whom slacked
and whom were disorderly or living as a “shirker”! What
would happen if your spouse decided to begin acting like a fool in public every
time the two of you were together ?
What would happen if your spouse refused to pay the bills; began acting
disorderly and began committing adultery and you found out your spouse was
living a secret life ? Would you leave
your spouse ?
James 4:4
Adultery is
of the mind and not just of the body!
The seed has to first be planted before the act is committed by the offender/s. The Divine white light of love brought a
vision to me showing me that my spouse was committing adultery before I
actually confronted him with the act of adultery with his female co-worker
mistress! I saw the two of them together
having lunch and I saw the woman lay her hand upon my spouse’s paycheck after
the two of them had lunch together. The
symbol of the vision was that my spouse was cheating with a “shady lady” after
his paycheck and was trying to get rid of me as his spouse by causing
detrimental harm to not just me, but to him as well! The woman did not want my spouse…but wanted
his money! His paycheck!
After having
the vision, I confronted my spouse but
he denied knowing such a woman. He denied he was having an affair and he denied
he had lunch with such a woman! I knew
my vision was the truth! Months later
the truth would be revealed out of the mouth of my spouse. Visions coming from
the Divine white light of love have always been the absolute truth! I told
my spouse then he was untruthful but he remained in absolute denial. My spouse was blinded by the truth because he
was swayed by Uriel . The woman my
spouse decided to have an affair with was of shady character; cheated on her spouse with my spouse and
convinced my spouse to do unspeakable things to me which caused detrimental
harm our marriage; our relationship, his job and to me as well. I place the most blame upon my spouse
because he admitted to pursuing the woman and admitted he saw the woman outside
of his employment. But after my spouse
confessed his “sins”, then I told my
spouse to cease having contact with the woman and tell the woman it was
over! I told my spouse he must call the
woman and confess to her his “sins” and tell her why he did what he did and
apologize to her spouse and I expected the same in return from the woman because
the woman owes an apology to me for having an affair with my spouse; for
excessively texting my spouse at our home and at his job with an absurd
obsession for months and months; for seeing my spouse outside of his employment
without my knowledge and carrying on with my spouse knowing she was a married
woman (if she is married and if she isn’t married she had no business either
way carrying on with my spouse!)
The “Lord”
hates divorce and hates individuals whom does unspeakable things to others when
they KNOW in their heart what it is they are doing!! This woman knew my spouse was a married
man. The detrimental harm came upon me
when my spouse called her while at our home (without my knowledge) and would
allow this woman to hear our arguments by cell phone AFTER my spouse had
belittled me; cussed me out; threatened my life and gotten me upset to the
point I was beside myself and my spouse knew he had his cell phone in his
pocket with an open phone line to his mistress while she was on the other end
listening! He would remain calm and
acted like nothing was going on while I was the recipient of his antics!
My spouse
had built up a scenario at his employment that I was a “threat” to him when in
fact, it was the other way around at our
home! My spouse had built a double life
at his employment based on lies that he had begun telling to those whom worked
with him, including his mistress! My
spouse was texting and calling these individuals around the clock, for months
and building his lies because his mistress was luring him in and egging him on! When my spouse came home, I didn’t even know any more whom or what I
was actually dealing with. It was
becoming too much to handle. I began
investigating my spouse’s cell phone records to find out what was going on
since he was spending more time away from home; he was spending a lot of money
on gas and not accounting for where he was going or why he was not giving
toward the bills even though he claimed to work x amount of hours! He unfortunately worked in the same
department as the female “co” worker and not until the very end did I even know
the woman’s name or much about her. My
spouse refused to be honest and confess his sins even when I had my cell phone
records and showed to him the actual evidence!
The cruelest act my spouse could have ever done to me was on
Thanksgiving day when he left me alone at home and spent his thanksgiving with
someone else! I went outside to take the
dogs out and came inside only to find my spouse had driven off without me! I called his cell phone multiple times and he
refused to call me back! For hours he
was gone, leaving me to sit a home alone on thanksgiving day! My spouse had the audacity to come home late
that night with a plate of food in his hands and tell me the plate was for
me! I wanted to smash the food in his
face. He told me that he went to the
home of a male coworker when I knew that was not true. He told me that I wasn’t there so he left
without me! I stood there in total
disbelief! There stood in front of
me, my spouse, a complete utter liar! In defiance,
the man I had married and been a companion for nearly 20 years was an
utter liar! My spouse was no longer
honoring me as his companion! My spouse
no longer considered me or my feelings. My
spouse was morally corrupt and bankrupt as my companion because he was blinded
by his adulterous affair with the shady lady!
What was I to do next as a spouse
whom has clarity by the Divine ?
My spouse
had told so many lies at his employment and allowed his mind to be so corrupted by his mistress that he was blinded
by the truth. My spouse made ME his
enemy. I was his target board on a daily
basis from the time he hooked up with the shady lady whom became his
mistress. The Divine white light of love
told me to GET OUT and leave quickly, for I was not safe where I was. Go unto a new land and so as to be safe. I was shown another vision by the Divine
white light of love. A very bad vision. My father came to me in the brightest of
light. So bright in fact, I was blinded by the light. I could hear my father’s voice but could not
see him. I was shown my spouse and my
younger son speaking very badly of me….being shown a computer and then my
father told me he was taking my only brother into the light with him!!
I began
yelling NO! NO! I began waving my arms
about and stumbling as I tried to find my father in the bright light…for I was
blinded by the light. Then my father
warned me I would be killed by a man with black hair and a dark beard and I
must leave…I must go quickly! I was in
grave danger! This danger was because
of my spouse and my younger son and what they were saying and doing and I was
shown a computer! I then woke up. My phone rang within three hours and I
obtained a message from my brother’s wife that my only brother was dying and I
needed to go quickly to see him. I
packed as much as I could and I left quickly.
Deuteronomy 4:5
See, I have taught you decrees and
laws as the LORD my God commanded me, so that you may follow them in the land
you are entering to take possession of it.
On the third
day of my brother’s death I knew my brother would be “born again” just as was
Jesus Christ was born anew. I found
myself at a place one night speaking to a man whom oddly resembled my brother,
wearing a black leather jacket. He had tattoos
and long, blond hair. Most people would
have passed up the opportunity to speak with him, but I thought he was very interesting and I
wanted to know the history of his tattoos.
He made me laugh even though I had been sitting there thinking of my
brother, feeling sad about his passing. We
parted our ways several hours after talking and I came home to praise the
Divine white light of love for giving me the opportunity of speaking with an
interesting stranger. I wondered whether my brother gave much
thought about the heavens above and where his soul would go into the afterlife.
I recalled kissing his forehead and
telling to not be afraid, that our father promised to come for him and walk
with him into the light. I recalled
telling him how much I loved him; would always be there for him and that he
could come to me any time, day or night!
Romans 6:23
Those whom
continue to deny the Divine white light of love does not exist will
perish! Those whom continue living in
sin will only know Death! It is a blessing for me to wake up each and every day
knowing the Divine is real! That the
spiritual realm exists! I have no fear in what the ungodly sinners have
to say about me; try to do to me or when Uriel attempts to knock upon my
door! I leave all matters in the hands
of the Divine white light of love.
When my
spouse refused to confess and I had all of the evidence spread out in front of
him, I told him to RUN to the woman…DO
NOT walk…but RUN to the woman if he felt that was going to bring him eternal
happiness! If throwing away a 19 year
marriage and nearly 20 years of
companionship was worth living a lie with a shady woman ? Do NOT walk…run to her!!! What did my spouse do ? He tried to blame ME for his actions! He tried to blame everything he did with that
woman on me! I refused to hear anything
that was spewing from his illogical mouth and I changed my phone number! I told my spouse to cease all contact because
he could not have his cake and eat it too!
I was NOT going to stay married to a cheater, a liar nor share my bed
with man I could no longer trust! The
man would have to confess his sins and tell the truth or our marriage and our
relationship was over and he could continue his “whatever he wanted to call it” with his mistress…the shady lady whom was
also morally bankrupt and corrupt!
My spouse
obtained my number from my son; Told me
he had not showered or changed his clothing in days; Told me he could not see himself living his
life without me because he realized we were soul-mates. He knew that from the first day we had
met. It is difficult to believe
anything a cheating spouse tells you because it sounds like “canned”
speech. But I decided to give my spouse
a chance. The opportunity to show me he
is being honest and sincere. My spouse
told me he was sorry and did not want our marriage to end in divorce. He asked for forgiveness because he
confessed. Had he not confessed, I would not have forgiven him.
I shall not
forgive the woman for she has not told her spouse nor has she apologized to
me! I told my spouse he owes her spouse
an apology as well because they both cheated.
It remains to be seen if it happens.
A full confession however is the only way either party will get into
heaven after they take their last breath upon this planet! The woman’s spouse is only aware of the lies
she told him! My spouse told that woman
many lies about me and he created the situation that never should have
happened. My spouse never should have
placed her cell phone number into his cell phone, but the woman never should have called my
spouse nor texted him knowing my spouse was a married man! The woman should have shown ME respect and
walked away from my spouse knowing he was married.
The Defining moment
Months later
both my spouse and I would later learn he has a brain injury caused by a motor
cycle accident he had over eight years ago.
The injury causes my spouse to not be able to control his impulses. I had seen multiple changes in my spouse over
time and asked my spouse to see a doctor many times. He refused.
The behavior in my spouse was growing worse as the years passed. When he met the woman at his job, my spouse became someone I did not know. My spouse would come home and have raging
fits over nothing. My spouse threatened
to kill me multiple times to the point I went to the court house and began
proceedings with a B-50 against him if he did not seek therapy. My spouse was out of control and acting
illogical. He believed I dumped him over
a dog and he claims he quit his job because I refused to turn on his cell
phone. Those claims were made at his
breaking point when he was at near exhaustion and having a near nervous
breakdown!
My spouse
was not sleeping. Not eating right. Not taking showers. Not changing his clothing that he worked. My spouse was causing me to feel as though I
was going to have a nervous collapse, as
well, from his antics! It is unspeakable
that the woman my spouse worked with would delight in knowing what my spouse
was doing to me at our home! How would
her spouse and family feel knowing what she was doing with my spouse ? Egging my spouse on to mistreat me as he was
doing ?! Hiding her calls to my spouse through google chat ? Contacting my spouse through google gmail ? Always talking to my spouse and
always texting my spouse around the clock knowing he was a married man ? What does that say about her character ?
Micah 7:18
The only ONE
whom can “pardon” sin is GOD and the ungodly sinner is NOT pardoned until they
confess and ask for forgiveness of their sins! There is NO mercy until then,
dear sinners!
Then they will cry out to the LORD,
but he will not answer them. At that time he will hide his face from them
because of the evil they have done. Micah
3:4
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